I am a close friend of Miss Prissy although I am not English. We have a few things in common and that is for a good repertoire. I must tell you out right that I am perfect, no matter what others say this is who I am. Everything I do is perfect, my dress, my morals, my talents, my manners and all that I have is true perfection. No one can touch me in anyway. I am above and beyond others mentally spiritually and physically simply because I have no flaws in my character. Others seem to be jealous and I guess this is their on problem because I will not give my my true being of perfection away for anything or anyone.
They say I am crazy because I am from far away land and I am very concerned about how I dress and my manners. I am Miss Prissy, the others think I am better then them because I take such good care of myself from the physical things to the moral and cultural things. I wear a tailored suit that fits just right with of course my English top hat for ladies. I would never step out of the door without making sure that I was smartly dressed and reserved in my manners with a little pride on the side.
Others think that I am in total denial of what has happened but I do not know anything else. I keep telling them that I was never touched sexually and they just mock me. I would be the first to know if it were not true. I cannot help what they may think and I truly do not care. I am always proper and well mannered and I try to reason with them but to no avail. I just keep my head for ward and do not look to the right or to the left. All I know is that I am necessary to the family of alters!
I came on the scene when Tamara was married to Charles. When she started having flashbacks about the many people who sexually abused her.Charles was trying to have sex with Tamara and she was having major panic attacks and she kept saying no no no, so Charles always raped her, he did not care about her at all. When she got mad one night and would not let him use her again I came on the scene because from that point on he called me a frigged B(I will not repeat that word!) For many years Tamara could never admit that her husband had raped her all the time. She finally came to that conclusion many years later. The alters protected her from that knowledge. She was so extremely damaged by what he did to her during this twenty-three year marriage.
Many make fun of me because of my name and because I do so love to wear glitzy and glamorous clothes. People think I am very childish! Simply because I love sparkling things. They do not have to be expensive this has no barring on me as a alter. I love to focus into the sparkles of the jewelry that I wear simply because it takes me to the warm and healing light far away in my mind. I can transpose bad into brilliant simply by going into the white light of my mind and when I look at the jewels they take me there. As you see I am highly intelligent and I create my own destiny! This is a place of never ending expansion and glory and solitude! Then when I come back from the light I am stronger and am able to be of more benefit to the others.
My name to me anyway reminds me of the twilight and how consuming it can be. I was created when Tamara was married to Charles and she tried so hard to get her in-laws to love her. I came here because the in-laws thought I should be perfect so my name means an angelic name but please believe me I am no angel. I tried so very hard to get their love and acceptance because in their eyes I was the problem in Tamara's marriage. I worked so hard to prove I was perfect so that they would not be so hard on me but you see in reality that no one can be perfect because we were all born in imperfection. This I know to be the truth.
When the in-laws finally came to this realization that putting someone on a pedistool is not proper and it is very hard to live by their own thinking specially for Tamara. Therefore because of them doing that when they realized that Tamara was not perfect they automatically started judging her for everything. No one should be put on a higher level and expected to live through that way. It is impossible even for me!
Don't you just love my name is it great and I fit that name so well in so many ways. I am called Fancy Pants because my attire is flamboyant and outrageous to those around me. I live in this state of utter denial and will remain this way. I am here to act just as I look in many ways I am one you will not forget when it comes to alters. I stand out in a crowd and I am free to move about while others are drawn to my personality. People who meet me can tell that I am not irritated by what they may say to me about my attire. This is my life and I will live it the way I want to no matter what. I have my share f charm and beauty but I do not think that is what is important. I give the other alters a chance to have a break while I am around. There is no sadness when I am out and no one can put me down because I am surrounded by this field of solitude and of course it is not visible to the naked eye.. I am a quandry and I possess this air of who cares about any sadness.
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