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No one really likes me and I do know why because I make up all these lies just to feel like I am someone when in reality I loathe myself and I should. I cannot deal with the truth because it is so horrible that the pain of knowing is too great for me to deal with! Sometimes I do not think that I am human. I do not deserve any attention or affection because I lie. I am ten years old. I do not like being this way! How can I go on?
Everything just becomes a vicious cycle someday I will find the answer and I will not have to lie anymore! I long for that time.
This is Tamara and when I was little I began lying because I could not face the truth. I felt so low with my sense of value how could I feel any esteem. I am very happy that I stopped doing that years ago. I have learned to see the truth and to grieve my pain and with it I have gained my self-respect!
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