I must admit that there are so many things that I do not know and I cannot be
sure of what tomorrow will bring. With that said, when one thinks of the idea of
destiny it connotes something very inspiring.When I think of life I am
encouraged to view everything that comes along as a blessing and a challenge
which I love more then anything. The word Destiny gives me this stream of
constant feelings and happenings and discoveries. I do so look forward to my
THE PURPOSE OF THIS PAGE
I suppose the best thing to tell you here is the fact that this page will go into my own life journey into integration and what my destiny will be. I hope that these posts will be of value in your journey and give you comfort and information that will help you in some way. Many questions are asked and thoughts are dealt with in a manner that will help you to get some idea of the process of integrating. This is my experience and for those who walk in my steps I hope you will be encouraged to think about integration. It is not to be feared. Also I would like to direct you to pages 7,8,9,10,11 where each one of the alters are there to share why they were created and who they are.
No. 1 Who can I TRUST?
I have been thinking that why would any of you out there want to be a part of
my blog or website if you did not trust me. It sounds pretty freaky to so many
people to even think about the idea of having one of two personalities much less
fifty-seven. I cannot blame any of you at all. One thing you must understand at
the beginning of even having the idea that there were more personalities made
me freaked out, however the more I thought about it, then I realized everything
in my whole life made sense after accepting the there were so very
many personalities that I created too survive.
As a child I was told that I was a very moody child. I can see that
my personalities were there at my early age because of the severe trauma and
abuse, because it started when I was one year old. I know you must be thinking
how could I know that at the age of one year. I came to realize through
flashbacks and body imagery.When I was going through therapy I started
having feelings of rage when I saw our black cat nursing her babies. I would get
this sick feeling and then the flashbacks came. I saw my mother nursing me and
felt her breast next to my cheek then I felt her masturbating me. Along with the
flashbacks I felt this happening in my body. Then I started crying so hard that I
did not think I would stop.
My senses are awakened when I am by the ocean.