One thing I have realized in the recent months is that once I am integrated then as a whole person I have to grieve over my losses. This is what I am dealing with right now. I have good days and bad days but I know this I am strong person and I can cope with it and become stronger in the process. So I hope you will have patience with me and even if I am not able to blog then you might understand my situation. I try to blog twice a week but sometimes I cannot do that. I just want you to understand who I am. I need to be honest with you in order to build trust! Thanks so much for coming by to visit my blogs!
I would love to say that I do not do this but I am guilty of procrastination. The fact is if I had just went through the fear into reality then I would have accomplished so much so many days sooner! Fear is just a very wall into not wanting to go on. If you make this a strong wall you will lose out on so many wonderful things in your life.
I wasted a lot of time from my own fears and how I could move forward. At times I felt paralyzed in what I should do and this is no way to live, Please do not do what I did. Fear is such a conduit to such better things in your life. All you have to do is go through the fear into the other side! On the other side is wonderful blessings that you have no idea how wondrous they are! I am so appreciative that you read my blog. You mean so very much to me even if you do not respond. All I care about is that you read my blogs over and over.
Thank you for appreciating my blog and it is okay if you are afraid to comment to my blogs. I have been through that in my own life! I know that you check out my blogs and thank you so much that means so much to me!
I feel back on track just needed a little time to myself I am sure you can all identify with those feelings. Yesterday was one of those days that help me to put this things in perspective. I am glad I am still able to grieve and even though at the moment it is painful the next day I always feel so much more clarity in my life.
For those who literally get sick inside when they think they might have to feel severe grieving please let it take its course simply because it adds so much more to your life and you can be that much more helpful to others.
In the lives we live we all have things that come into our lives that make us grieve and this is so important to let the grieving process go the full length or else you may find your self using substances you did not want to use to get through and then one morning you wake up and you are hooked on whatever it is that you started to do to comfort yourself so you would not feel the pain. Believe me it is a vicious cycle.
I wanted to say a few things about how I am feeling lately! I thought I needed to take a reprieve because I have many things I want to talk about. First of all I am only a support to those who feel they have the same diagnosis and nothing else. Do not ever take my word over a therapist and this is why I am not a therapist.
I am only one imperfect human being who has her own history and no matter what I am not into being a therapist or anything else. All I want is others to know that I am willing to talk about my life so that maybe in sometime I will be able to encourage some to get the help they need. I just want you to know that I am here if you want to share
My senses are awakened when I am by the ocean.