I feel back on track just needed a little time to myself I am sure you can all identify with those feelings. Yesterday was one of those days that help me to put this things in perspective. I am glad I am still able to grieve and even though at the moment it is painful the next day I always feel so much more clarity in my life.
For those who literally get sick inside when they think they might have to feel severe grieving please let it take its course simply because it adds so much more to your life and you can be that much more helpful to others.
In the lives we live we all have things that come into our lives that make us grieve and this is so important to let the grieving process go the full length or else you may find your self using substances you did not want to use to get through and then one morning you wake up and you are hooked on whatever it is that you started to do to comfort yourself so you would not feel the pain. Believe me it is a vicious cycle.
My senses are awakened when I am by the ocean.