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People have often asked me what it is like to be shattered! It is like you are looking down at a broken mirror in many pieces, some are large pieces some are medium and others are small. You cannot really get a good perspective in the image below because each piece is cut off from the main part of the original mirror! I cannot say anything but it boggles a young person's mind and also an adult which is what I was when I became co-conscious of my alters. I just started realizing they were a part of my presence in a vague sort of way.
It is sort of like being in a proverbial fog with not too much clarity! Along with that there is so much negative voices and some alters rearing their heads in pain. This was just the beginning of many days and nights of turmoil in each of their own minds. No one knew who would be in charge at any given moment. We were on our own rollercoaster ride that never seemed to stop. I went from nights where there was no sleep to seeing knives in my hand stabbing at my stomach. We never wanted to die we just wanted the pain to go away. I do not miss those days and years!