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In the real beginning when I was born then because of someone's stupidity I was named Charlotte Ann on the birth certificate. Because my fleshly father did not like this name he continually called me Tamara and the name stuck.
Because at the age of one year the fleshly mother masturbated her daughter while she was feeding at her breast. Once finished feeding her she used Charlotte's little body to masturbate her own-self. This trauma made Charlotte go into a tunnel which of course was psychological. and she would not arrive on the scene until I became co-conscious of the alters. That was back into 1996. So of course because of not being able to have a true formed personality she became shattered. This is when Tamara came on the scene.
Her name was taken from the Tamarack tree which was or is stalwart and tall. And little did she know that she was going to have to be so strong for all the things that would come upon her. She came to be her father's temptress or at least this was what he called her. His beautiful little temptress He began grooming her for the big opening of adulthood. It started ever so slowly and manipulatively.Tamara loved her father and took care of him when her mother went to bed at five in the afternoon. Little did she know at that time what would be her reality for the next several years.
I was a victim of satanic abuse and I had three alters that were created at this time in life to help protect me from the bad memories. There was Jasmine who took me to fields of flowers when the abuse got really rough. This of course was psychological in meaning. Then there was tabitha who lived in a perpetual trance. she was numbered out and could not function. The last alter was Julianna and she was the one that took the physical torture and it deformed her little body. So, please do not believe that satanic abuse does not happen.