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I have been thinking back to when I felt that I could not survive without my alters. Yes, it is true that they were very useful at one time however, through therapy and writing I have come to realize that I am the one who has being doing all the work.Today I see that I would act to make the other parts of me so that they felt comforted. Such as buying a teddy bear and nice satin pajamas. I needed those comforts because I was learning how to heal and take responsibility for my own pain and not push it onto any of the alters. There were days I could not get out of bed the pain and sorrow was so great. And if I went out the others came with me to protect. Today I go out and I am just myself and it is great because I feel so free of turmoil. I have indeed dealt with the good majority of the pain. Whenever I decide to take on a project I always follow through and finish it. That to me is very healthy. Now I can feel my own feelings and I know they are mine and I can deal with everything in life that comes my way. I love Life!
Do you find as you go through the day that you have feelings that start as one and subtly changes sometimes for the good other times for the negative?