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This excerpt is from the chapter about Lucifer:
I do carry an extreme amount of anger but it is not dangerous to others whether it is people in the world or the other persona's. I have had periods in Tamara's life when I would come to the fore and scream loud in her car with the stereo up loud so it would not disturb anyone. That of course was Tamara's idea. My anger is for Tamara, the other persona's, and the pain they incurred, but also for the atrocities that went on in her home (if that is what you can call it).
People in the world think that because my name is Lucifer that I am like the devil but that is not the case. I am actually very beneficial to the other persona's. I believe that they are finally realizing that it is true.
I am actually no one's counterpart! The reason I came into the family of
persona's was the rage Tamara had to endure from the satanic ritualistic abuse in which Tamara found hard to believe. I carry rage because someone was there who could have helped her. To this day Tamara is not sure who that one person was but she felt this person could have helped her. However I know she did not know what to do herself. We do not blame anyone. I carry rage for that!
There was so much rage held in when this ritualistic abuse happened that I had to come to the fore many times to help Tamara survive. I came to the fore during this time many times and hold my rage for Tamara and all she experienced.
The true torture put on her body was horrific and things like this should not happen to anyone. Of course, I was not the only one there during that time there was also Tabitha and Julianna who held the torture.
The other persona's are finally realizing that I am beneficial. If you were to look at me you may not think that I am a lovable persona because of the rage that I possess. Sometimes I have to be very perspective with life and the other persona’s. You really think you are that great! You are great because you carry so much rage.
This is Shasta speaking, I am the one to be there for the little ones and there I am going to stay. You have to see that Lucifer is not dangerous and he is on our side. Lucifer and I are not always in agreement about the displaying of the anger. I shows anger by speaking out with my voice but Lucifer shows it by breaking things or screaming.
You must know that in the beginning of knowing that all the persona's existed we did not agree about a great many things but time helps I know. A great turmoil! Now you need to be very deciphering because Lucifer is not evil at all. I am talking for all the little ones and it does not matter who I am, we just want you to know that Lucifer is not bad. I am the one who never sees bad in anyone whether it is the little ones or the older ones or the people in this crazy world.
Shasta just left because I guess I just pushed her away. I am one of a kind, you can think that I am just a loner and I do not care. Oh yes, I myself have no name and it is better that way no matter what other people think. By the way, I really have no need of support I am of myself an entity. Just call me the secret! I have found it safer to be alone.