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I used to think that integration was only killing off my alters. I never saw it as a way to be better mentally,emotional and physically. During my therapy I even told my therapist I did not want to integrate which as I look back was just my own fears coming to the fore.
When working hard to get to know my little alters in which there were eight of them. I began to love them as if they were real beings on their own not something I created to survive. I spent much time talking with each of the little ones and came to see their pain and how it had affected myself. I also began to realize how important it was for me to get to know their pain and fears because then I could be of more benefit.
The most important thing I came to the conclusion that I no longer wanted to be that wounded child left on their own. Thus began the journey of honestly being there to help the compartmentalized parts of myself to heal no matter what it took. That is when I made a conscious decision to move forward in my healing. I made the greatest decision I could have ever made.