No that has nothing to do with that movie. I am going through another metamorphose and I am balking at the idea. In other words there is fear behind this and I have to walk through like I have in the past. I have always wanted to be so honest with everyone out there because I do not like pretenses.
Well you need to know that in all honesty my trauma could have been dealt with so much earlier in a few years if my drinking did not keep bobbing up it's head. First of all I left the west coast because I thought if I moved far away then I could heal quicker. I was ready and more then willing to go clear across the United States to another place where I knew no one. Yet that in itself was so inviting to me because I knew my abusers would never go to the extremes of coming clear across the united states just to find me. I felt safe and I wanted a new start.
I also lost in that time my seeing my grown up boys for such a long time. I have not seen my three sons for eighteen years but we talk on the phone two or three times a month. I have no greater desire then to go visit my boys but right now since I live on disability I cannot even think about that trip. This is my goal to get my book published and be able to go visit my specials sons whom I love more then anything. This is the greatest gift I can give to them. Thank you so much for listening to me you are precious to me!
I am open to those who are curious and want to learn.